what my psychologist said, and other things

today has not been a good day, I angered friends, and I have no one to blame for that, but my self. I did see my psychologist today, and she told me my test raised a red flag, because how much I thought about killing my self, and how I isolate my self from everyone. even how I feel I am dumb, I showed her some of my blog post, and she said it was perfect with what the test show, and she told me I have biological depression, and clinical depression. I really have a hard time with this, I don't know how to talk about it any more, and when I try I mess things up. I can only cry so much, but still it does not feel like I cry at all, because I have a lot more to do.