Dear 2012

Frankly my dear,

You have been a shit year,

all the times you left me for dead,

making me spend my days in a hospital bed,

But you I have something to tell,

your shit year of hell,

is coming to an end,

and in 2013 I shall spend,

My year sorrow free, and filled with rejoice,

like the joy my ears feel when hearing Lily's voice,

so to you 2012 I say au revoir,

Because 2013 shall shine like a star!!!!

Dear my Lovely Readers,
I hope your 2013 is a great year for you,
I love you all!!!!
your friend,
VPK

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I travel through time, and space;

With my thoughts as my guide;

As the universe grows, and shifts;

Natural feelings become a curse, and gift; 

That in all the days I live shall always exist;

And no matter how hard one is to try;

Bad days shall comes, so;

Even when times are perfect;

Something shall always be like a bullet;

That enters my mind that breaks my heart as,

Feelings make me cry when both happy, and;

Really sad, but I kept this hidden deep;

Inside the Hell and heaven of my mind;

Even those that can see from this are left blind;

Never to know my  secret world of broken;

Dreams, and hidden hopes!!!!

A Look Back

When I look back at the time that's foregone,

I see the horrible person I was,

and become deeply withdrawn,

and this is all because,

all my wrongs were unseeing,

and I was among the lost,

mentally dumb, deaf and blind beings,

and this all came at a great cost,

as with many close ones am now estrange,

now I try not to be that person both today, and tomorrow,

and for the better I try to change,

and free my mind from the prison of sorrow,

for being the person I was am greatly regretful,

I wish just like you  had,

I would have seen I was a person that was awful,

but today am at peace, and not soul sad,

and finally see the world's delight,

with myself am able to appease,

all thanks to you for giving me sight,

my mind is finally at ease!!!!

Words To My Friend(s)

I see the rain that falls from your eyes,

As you live life in a disguise,

you keep your head held high,

but in your heart you wish to die,

as you feel as none will ever understand,

your mind's hell of always feeling damned,

But you are my very dear friend,

and to you these words I send,

in hope your sorrow they will end,

sometimes as you I feel the same way,

Asking my self will the pain go away?

but the Lord's light shall forever stay,

and the darkness shall perish,

and by the word you shall nourish,

in life's most beautiful fruit,

That in which the devils can not pollute,

and free your thoughts from the enemy,

and live your life in a state of serenity!!!!

A Look At Christmas!!!!

Dear my lovely readers,




I hope all is going great for you, and you are in peace!!!!


Well the world did not end today, so I guess I will continue to write blogs!!!!


Christmas is in a few days, and I want to take a closer look at the holiday. Many people celebrate Christmas as the day Yahshua (Jesus) was born, but actually Yahshua was not born on December 25, or even close, but he was born probably around September, and the reason many think it is September is, because in the Bible it is written that the shepherds were tending to their flock, so it had to be during a warmer month Christmas, which is seen as a Christian holiday actually did not start off that way, but started off as a pagan holiday.


To continue, originally Christmas was a week long pagan holiday that took place between the 17-25 called Saturnalia; During this week all the courts in Rome were closed, and it was a week of lawlessness in which it is said men would get drunk, beat their wives, exchange gifts, have sex with each other, and injure people with out having to worry at all about the law. Each City in The Roman Empire would choose one person to be the enemy of the Roman people, and to represent the Lord of Misrule; this person was forced to indulge in food and other physical pleasures, and on the last day of Saturnalia The Roman authorities thought they were fighting off the forces of evil by brutally murdering the person despite the fact he, or she was forced by the Romans to do all this, and was more than likely innocent. So the question you might be asking is "well how than did Christmas go from being a pagan holiday to being about the birth of Yahshua?


Third,, the reason for the change from being a pagan holiday to a day seen as the birth of Yahshua is, because when the Catholic church started to get more power, and wanted to convert the pagans into Christians they decided to keep many pagan holidays such as Christmas, and Easter, but change the meaning of the day, because they thought by keeping these holidays it would help to convert more pagans by giving them a holiday in which they were use to, however Many don't even celebrate Christmas, because they think it honours the birth of Yahshua,




furthermore. Many people around the world simply do the Christmas thing as a time of putting up a Christmas tree, leaving gifts for others, doing the whole Santa thing, and so on. In a way this form of celebration has become what Christmas is about as most films, T.V specials, and when people talk about Christmas has more to do with the whole Santa thing than the birth of Yahshua thing. Now many traditions are said to come from this form of celebration of Christmas, but how true are they actually?


pursuing this further, you hear of many traditions of Christmas, and sayings such as "it's better to give than receive" but we need to look at things with truth, because while many people say it is better to give than receive they would rather receive than give. Than we have Christmas stories such as Rudolf the Rednosed Reindeer, a story about a deer with a glowing red nose that saves Christmas after a massive snow storm, and many peopel think of this as a Christmas story that has been passed on from generation to generation (which it has been since it has been around a while now), but actually it has not been around as long as many people think, and was a story created by Montgomery Ward; a retail store. In a way you can say Christmas is nothing more today than a way for retail stores to make money.


Basically, Christmas is a day as seen as being "the most wonderful time of the year" but in truth it is a time of the year were the retail stores such as Wal Mart make the most money, and things are not really wonderful, but stressful as people try to find the must get item of the year. The day starts off pretty much on black Friday; which is ironic, because black Friday is a day in which everyone goes nuts, and pretty much says to the other people f*ck you as they try to get gifts for people, and it's ironic, because black Friday takes place the day after we are giving thanks, Thanksgiving, so on Thursday it's thank you, but on the Friday after it's F*ck you. I don't really care how anyone celebrates Christmas for the most part, but I do have a problem with Christmas in the following way.

Generally, I could care less about how people do their Christmas thing weather it's to celabrate the birth of Yahshua, or they do the Santa thing, because pretty much no one does the pagan type way anymore, but I do have this problem with Christmas; you always hear of santa watching the kids, and how he only gives gifts to those boys, and girls that have been good, and leaves coal for those that have been bad; now you might think that's a good thing, but if you look at that deeper you will see it actually is not a good thing, because think of it this way let's say a kid has been bad his parents aren't going to not get that kid gifts, but they still will get him, or her gifts, so the kid that has been bad still gets gifts, and this could lead them to thinking they were good when they were not, so down the road they will still do bad things, because they might think their being good, but lets look at this from the other side of the coin let's say a kid is good, but their parents are simply too poor to get them anything, so the kid gets no gifts despit them being good, so this could make them feel like they were bad even though they were not, and lead them to start doing bad, because they think they already were doing bad, and so maybe by them changing and doing bad they would think they're doing good.


In final analysis, Christmas was a pagan holiday that has grown to be about many different things, and although it is a time of joy the truth is it is filled with much stress, and is not a time free from problems, but really only creates more.



Thank you for your time, and for reading this post,
I love you all deeply.
Your Friend,
VPK

My Thoughts As They Come!!!!

I am a prisoner to my own thoughts, and I find myself asking if this is right, or wrong, and I don't know if am walking in YahWeh's light, or a slave to Satan's darkness, and find myself questioning weather am free from the wickedness that once was a cancer to my mind, or if am living free from it all. I don't know if am a person of wisdom like I wish, or just a fool that thinks he is wise  but with all the problems, and thoughts that go through my head on a daily bases I know you are with me, and always will be, but I find myself needing you more than ever, so I ask for Wisdom, Knowledge and understanding rather than money.

It is clear that wisdom is worth more than any stone, or metal and knowledge is what is best to build a solid foundation on, and having understanding means to love people no matter how different they are, no matter if you agree with how they live their life, and to forgive people when it is not the easiest thing to do, and all wisdom, knowledge and understanding that is correct comes from your blessing, and that in which it does not is the false lies of the devil which blinds the eyes, and we sometimes don't even see that we are blind, but rather we think are sight is divine.

I do not cast stones against anyone, but I do cast stones against myself. because I know of all my flows, and my flows have caused me to lose friends in the past, and I wish I could make peace with those people, and ask that you give me the chance to do so, but for the longest of times I was not at peace with my own self, and the only thing I really wanted was for death to lay her kiss upon me, and escape from hell, but now I want life, and to spread love, and to help those that might think like I did, and are prisoners to their own thoughts, like I was, and tell this day I still am at times.

To all my atheist brothers, and sisters I know we don't agree on the whole God thing as I feel as God exist, but you don't, but don't think for one seconded that I don't love you, and I pray for you not in a negative way as to sound like am better, but in a positive way with love being the motivation  and no matter what you can turn to me, and I will be there for you my friend!!!!

The reason for that is, because the person in which I try to live like, even though it is not the easiest thing to do, has taught me to love, and I know he would love you, because his heart is pure, and his example is what I try to live by.

I know this blog post was weird, and am sorry for that,
I hope The Holy Most High blesses you over, and over again, and fills your hearts with The Holy Spirit
I love you all deeply,
your friend,
VPK

A Look At The Mental Hospital Problem(s)

Dear my lovely readers,

I hope you are doing well, and you are in peace, and may the Holy Most High send you many blessings!!!!

So in the world we live in today you often hear stories, or see on the news how a person did some horrible act that had mental problems, and you ask well why was this person not in the mental hospital, and the reason for this is, because lots of times they were, but after only a week, or two the doctor(s) let that person go simply, because the person in that week seems fine, however the thing about that is sometimes it takes more than a week to truly see the real person.you see anyone can act a certain way, and fool people, and it takes a while to see the true them. It simply does not happen over night. Now you may be asking well why do they let people go so fast? Well the blame may actually not all fall on the shoulders of the mental hospital.

In lots of cities, and states (I don't know how it is in other countries, so I can only talk about the United States) the government, weather it's local or state, is not giving the finds needed to support the mental hospitals, so they can't afford to keep people too long, and they have no choice, but to let people go even if it is not a good thing.

Another problem is with the insurance companies. As many only allow the person to stay in the hospital for long, because they don't want to pay, and after the period ends in which they pay for the stay the hospitals let people go, because sadly it's about the money, and if the they are not making money off someone they simply will let them go, so they can get someone in they will get paid for. Maybe some of you are saying well they can give the people medication(s), and that should take care of them right? well that does not always work.

The problem I find with most medications for mental problems is most make the person a zombie, and that person seems to always be out of it. Another problem is lots of times the person will run out of meds, and then they become worse than before. I know of a few people that were on medication  but ran out, and got so bad they sadly throw them selves in front of a train. Maybe they will be able to improve medication, so it does not make you a zombie, and when you run out the fall is not so bad.

In the future (hopefully the very near future) I hope this is no long an issue, and the mental hospitals are able to keep those who need to be kept longer than a week, or two the time needed to truly help them, and let's hope they get the money, and support from the government they need, and please can the insurance companies stop worrying only about money, but instead taking care of the people, and maybe science can improve medications over time.

Thank you for your time,
I love you all deeply,
your friend,
VPK

My First Blog In Forever

Dear my lovely readers,

I hope you are all doing well, and you are in peace. It's been a very long time since I last wrote a blog. As for me I been not doing to well these last few months, and I had five seizures since October, and the doctors don't know why, but they gave me some new meds, and told me if I take them I should not have any, so let's hope they do there job. Then a few weeks back I started to faint, like I walk two steps, and bam vic's on the ground, but today I write to you all feelin' pretty good.

What all these health problems have done is make me very humble, like I use to hate that I was alive, and wanted to die, but now I am happy to be alive, and feel blessed to be writing this blog, I guess sometimes something needs to happen to open your eyes, and my eyes no longer feel closed to the beauty of life.

that is all for now, I hope to write more blogs soon, and I hope the Holy Most High sends many blessing your way.

Love,
Your Friend,
VPK

being a prisoner to the past

Dear my lovely readers,

I hope all is well with you, and you are in peace,

one thing that is commonly done is we make our selves prisons to regrets to things we did, or did not do in our past, for example one might think to their self " why did I not take the job when I should have, or why did I do this, or that" but the truth in the matter is no matter how much you regret the past you simply can not change it, so there is no need to make it our prison, because if one is to keep doing that they will forever be a slave to the past, and the future will be held down with the chains of regret, so simply leave the past were it belongs the past.

in the book of Philippians  it is written

"Brothers, I do not consider that I have made it my own. But one thing I do: forgetting what lies behind and straining forward to what lies ahead, I press on toward the goal for the prize of the upward call of God in Christ Jesus"


simply put the past is history :)


thank you for your time,


love,
your friend,
VPK

the sorrow of the summer

Dear my lovely readers,

I hope everything is going good for you all, and you are in peace.

This summer has in a way sucked for me in the fact that I spent most of it in the hospital, in fact I spent most of 2012 in, and out of the hospital, and am sick of being sick. my illness has caused me to miss parties, funerals, and so on, and it's like I want my normal life were I was not sick back. am in the hospital so much, and have to get so many I.V's my arms look like pin cushions, but despite all of that I am still happy, and in high spirits, and over all am happy :)

I will pray that your lives are filled with joy :)

love,
you friend,
VPK

life has been good

Dear my lovely readers,

sorry for not posting too much in my blog I will try to do so more :D
I hope everyone is doing well, and you are in peace. as far as I go my life has been good as I no longer get sad as much as I do, and the feeling is great, because as most people know being depressed sucks major arse

In other news: my sister is visiting from Florida. which is cool, because I only get to see her once a year, and I finally got to meet my niece after five years, and I already have her spoiled, like I take her with me to the store everyday, and buy her so much, because it's not like I can see her every week, but I only see her once a year, and idk that's wack, but am happy I can at least see her when I can. this is her photo :)

In even other news: today is the first game of the Vikings in the preseason which means one thing: The NFL season is almost here, and in case you do not know this: The NFL is better than any other sport in the universe, and the Minnesota Vikings are the best team ever. I don't care how bad the Vikings do during the season (although I rather have them do good, or great) I will always only be a Vikings fan, and like I hate when people like who ever is doing good that year, like hey so you know my name is vic, and I do not ride on the band wagon xD

That is all for now, I hope God continues to bless you with joy, and if not I pray that he does,
I love you all deeply,
your friend, VPK

my eyes are broken glass,

shattered underneath a mask,

covered in your sin,

a lust for your taste begins,

my heart wants to be pure,

but behind the poor,

is a closed coffin,

were they talk about riches often.

....

....

thoughts

Dear my lovely readers,

I hope everything is well for you, and you ar ein peace.

It's been a long time my friends, and things have been OK at best. been in the hospital a few times as always, but am not letting that hold me down from happiness. I went to church the last few weeks with my mum, because she likes to go, and she likes me to go with her, andI have to say I enjoyed it very much, and it made me think of how people help people, and how people have helped me. in particular this one lady.

A few years back I had to get these special eye drops from ECMC hospital, because they were sp potent no pharmacy would even try to make them, however the problem was ECMC hospital is in Buffalo, New York, and at the time I have never been to Buffalo on my own before, but hey I could easily do it, so the plan was to go by bus then from the bus stop take the city Bus to KFC, and from there walk the two blocks. Simple plan right....Vic read the directions wrong, and the KFC I had the city bus drop me off at was no where near ECMC hospital, so here I was a person on a city I never been to, lost, and oh my phone was dead too to add the cake mix, but anyhow I walked into KFC, and asked them how long ECMC was from here, and they said all the way across the city, but then this lady goes to me: "am going that way, so I can drop you off" now that might not seem like a big deal, but to me it was I mean she did not have to help me, she could have just ignored me, but instead she asked chose to help me, and I will never forget her.




The reward for helping people should not be money, fame, or any glory, but the reward for helping people is the feeling of joy you bring to those people in which you touch, so I say to each of you that take the time to read this blog to help one another, and do it with love.




that is all for now,
I love you all deeply,
your friend,
VPK

P.S

follow me on instagram @insomnivic

The Angry Bee that became the humble Butterfly

Dear my lovely readers, let me tell you a story

There was once an Angry Killer Bee 

who many bugs feared, because he was the baddest bug on the planet

The bee was a boxer, and would sting his way to the top

and everyone feared him, but then a new hope happened,

the bee lost a fight,

but the bee was still the same, and still the most feared

but then he want to prison, and the people hoped that would change him

but when he got out he was the same, and started to bite other bugs ears

he even said he eat their children

They did not even have :S

and people were sick of him, and thought he never change, 

but then one day,

the bee did not seem so angry any more,

and went from the angry bee that would sting you to the humble butterfly

That would nicely bring you honey for your tea, and stuff

and now most everyone loves him, because he is so humble

the butterfly's name, you ask?

well it was Mike Tyson

The END

so what was the point of this story that probably left lots of things about Tyson out you ask? the point is that even the worst people we view in life can change for the better, and the point is to let you know that if you ever feel there is someone in your life that needs to change, or you feel there are things you need to change never give up hope that they can, and that you can too. the thing you might want to change might be small, it might be big, but still everyone can change for the better, as long as you work at it.

I hope a few of you understand the point I was trying to make,

that is all for now,

love,

your friend,

VPK

Dear "you"

Dear "you",




It was good seeing you the other day ago. I remember we use to spend so much time together, however now we never really see each other, and it was good to see you, and spend time with you even if it was for a short time. Am happy you're finely with someone that makes you happy, because your last boyfriend only made you sad, and was not worth your time, because your special, and only deserve to be happy. you will always be my friend, and you will always be in my heart



love,
your friend,
VPK


P.S I hope your cats get along one day lol

I won't

keep you waiting for long, my friend

I will be with you very soon,

and sit with you until  the end,

of  December's moon,

no need for another,

to come with their false,

we only need each other,

they will only point to our faults,

and they will always mumble,

and keep their fingers pointed,

at our world that crumbles,

but they are all anointed,

with broken mirrors,

and in blood they crucify,

us in our errors,

but soon we will unify,

and this will be over,

and we will know what is life,

and from this be sober,

hand and hand my wife.

F*ck you sleep I don't need you!!!!

no truth can be told,

no lie can hold,

this mind I behold,

that melt my soul like wax,

and chop my thoughts like an axe,

like the sound from the a gun,

that made the bells rung,

and caught the attention,

and broke your ear drum,

words that are wise to some,

but left others lost feelin' dumb,

painting a picture with out a brush,

speaking loudly, but as silent as a hush,

these thoughts die daily,

but new ones are born like a baby,

and between the time of the sun rise,

before the night moon dies,

across the skies

 my ink dries,

I move on to the next,

thought, and subjects 

The Mirror two

I look in the mirror,
into it's the empty world,
of my soul's reflection,
the looking back expression,
given by the individual,
that convinces my heart,
to listen to the lies,
that it poisons me with,
telling me what I wish not to hear,
making me feel sorrow is the only way,
having me convinced love does not exist,
and that am friendless,
left empty in sorrow's abyss,
I rise my hands to break the glass,
and the mirror speaks the words,
that's seven years bad luck,
as it laughs so wicked,
until the glass gets shattered,
from my very delight,
because now am free,
from my personal conviction,
and my thoughts are at the beauty,
of peace's loving kiss.

idfkadfc

The most tasteful fruits,

die alone rotten,

never to be kissed by a mouth,

and lie dead on the ground forgotten,

not even the bugs, and birds,

care to give them a taste,

their lives become pointless,

their existence a waste,

yet they will take its seed,

and plant the same tree,

thinking things will change,

but the same result they will forever see

update

Dear my lovely readers,

I hope everyone is doing well, and you're all in peace,

so today I made a discovery about myself, and was the source of my depression. you see these last few months I have for the most part been happy, but why? I mean how come am happy now, but before I could never be happy? was it the meds? nope those shits don't work? is it the weed I only smoke once in a while? nope, because I always go through periods of smoking, and not smoking, and not much changed, but then today I finally seen what it was, and the one thing I have not been even thinking about, so what is it?

....welll

because of what it is I am not even going to say, but now I know what was the reason for all my sorrow, and now I know the cancer that it has all been, and will always be, so what can I do about it? for the most part nothing, but since I know what the common factor of my sorrow is I know now how to deal with it, and that is to do what I been doing for these last few months, but then again that's hard, but fuck it

in  other news that pisses me off is my grandparents have to move out of their house this week, or next, and it pisses me off to no end, because they lived there for forty one years, so why do they have to move you ask? well you see my grandfather was going to buy the house from his best friend, sam, but then sam got sick, and lost his mind, and passed away, and rather than his wife selling it to my grandfather like sam was going to do she sold it to someone else, however that person allowed my grandparents to live there, so everything was cake, but then all the sudden that wanker was like: "oh we are going to move in there, so you have to move" and that is just wack all around. if anyone of them die I will blame them even if it's not their fault, because my grandmother is already really sad over this, and she is the last one I have, and is ninety-one.

in even other news I got a new phone,  droid, so if idk you want my number just ask for it, and I will give it to you., and also I have Instagram, so follow me on there my name is insomnivic (which in case you did not know is a combo between insomnia, and my name vic)

me first pic xD

that is all for now,
may peace be with everyone of you,
I love you all deeply,
your friend,
VPK

my love for flowers

flowers are so lovely,

there sight, and smell,

can make the horrors of hell,

a heavenly place to dwell,

such an amazing scent,

they make my soul enter nirvana,

and my heart sentiment,

with colours so pleasant,

each flower is like candy,

to my passing eyes,

I want them to keep me company,

where my dead body lies,

and be with my hurt soul,

when my broken heart cries,

because in a life that's confusing,

flowers are always soothing.

My Friend's Feelings On These Four Films

Dear my lovely readers,

I hope everything is fantastic in your lives, and you are in a state of peace.

now I really don't do this, but my friend Homer Doh recently watched  four films that are/were currently playing in the cinema, because you know I never do that, because it's illegal to watch them on line, so here is his review of each film he recently watched.

Thank you Vic, I will try to say how I feel about the film with out giving anything away, and the things I will give away I will put in a spoiler, so in case you do not want to have any parts ruined for you, on does not have to click the link, and read it.

Film Number one

Snow White And The Huntsman

First things first let me start of by saying who ever it was that recorded this film did a really crappy job. During the first like ten minutes they were holding there camera sideways, and they were not even focusing on the screen right, then you kept hearing people talking, but that was not the wrost part, no the worst part was you kept seeing people in the cinema get up, and down, and walk in front of the screen, I mean during one part someone was standing in front of the damn screen for like five minutes. If I would have went to see this film at the cinema, and some idiot was standing in front of the screen for five minutes my soda pop would have been thrown at their head, but non the less I found the film to be good, and the story was all right. now many people have said they did not want to see the film, because Kristen Stewart played Snow WHite, you know the actress from twilight, however I never seen those films, or read any of the books, and I never plan to do so, and she was not that bad, but with that being said she was not that good either. There was one part were she gave a speech, and if I was one of the people on her said it would have made me join the Evil Queen's side. I did like how it told how the Queen got into power, and I liked how they did the mirror. The film is basically the snow white story just told different. 

Spoiler 

Film Number Two

The Vow

Ok, let me start of by saying I like romantic films for some reason, and the person who recorded this did a really good job. The film is about Leo, played by Channing Tatum, trying to help his wife Paige, played by Rachel McAdams, get her memory back after a horrific car accident, and having to deal with the struggles of when a loved one loses her memory of you, and all that she been through with you, and also other issues such as her family,a dn the events of them she does not remember. I really liked this film, and it is one I would recommend you go see at the cinema. now many people had a problem with how it ended, but me personally found nothing wrong with the ending. 

spoiler

Film Number Three

Battleship

wait that's not the film cover this is

OK, let me cut to the chase this film was shit, and not worth your time. I mean the person who reordered it did not do a bad job, but there was some issues: first of all it was, like recorded in China, or something, so some of the parts were in Chines, and second of all, the audience kept laughing at the most random parts, like a person say "get me NASA" and you hear the crown erupt into laughter, and there was only like three, maybe four funny parts. Rihanna was in this film, and while I like her music I have to say based on this film she should take acting classes, and another thing who had the genius  idea to make a film based on a board game?The film is about an alien invasion after the people of Earth send a signal to the planet G, and the people of Earth have to defeat the invaders. on a side note this film loosely plays on the conspiracy that there is lizard people that have advanced tech, but it does not play on the theory they are in another dimension also it does not play on the theory that all the rulers of the Earth are secretly lizards, lol

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Film number four

Men In Black III

This film was good, the acting was good, the comedy was good, and the action was good, and there was no problem with how the person recorded it. Will Smith did a really good job once Again as Agent J, but besides a few films such as wild wild west, or what ever it was called, most his films are good, and Tommy Lee Jones, and Josh Brolin did a good job as Agent K, and young Agent K. The film is about Agent J having to go back in time, and save agent K from being killed by Boris the animal after Boris the Animal escapes from prison after his girlfriend, played by singer Nicole Scherzinger, helps him escape from his prison on the moon, and he goes back in time, and kills agent K

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All in All besides battleship all these films are worth watching, and The Vow, and MIBIII are worth going to the cinema, thank you vic for letting me post on your blog to let people know how I feel about each film, and thank you everyone for reading it. you all rock !!

your welcome  Homer Doh, and remember everyone this was just how he felt, and you may love the films he hated, but hate the films he loved, so to be honest you should always check a film out for yourself to see weather, or not one likes it.

That is all for now,

I love you all deeply,

your friend,

VPK 

P.S 

Remember when Will Smith first came out, and he was a rapper known as The Fresh Prince?

To Lara

in my dark world,

the wind of your light,

shall always shine,

every minute we spent together,

is like a treasure of gold,

in my mind's everlasting soul,

I value your love

 more than any metal or stone,

I enjoy your friendship,

like the sweet melody

of the most peaceful song,

I would not trade you,

for all the worth ,

of the planet Earth,

or to be the king,

of the entire Universe,

my dear sweet Lara,

you are a diamond,

in life's rough!!!!

6 pm

run through the fields of cotton,

where the flowers bloom and blossom,

and the garden are beautiful,

during the sun, and moon's,

light to behold,

it will make your eyes fold,

in its perfection!!!!

hope is dead

it does not matter what I say,

no one hears it anyway,

nor does it matter what I write,

no eyes ever give it sight,

everything just becomes lost,

left dead frozen like frost,

and so to dies my will,

leaving a void nothing can fill,

nothing I can drink,

no thoughts I can think,

not any colour of weed,

can fill my emptiness with what I need,

so I die in the empty arms,

of hope's senseless charm,

knowing she will forget,

and leave me to live in this shit,

of nothing, but grieve,

because she knows in her I will always believe,

because to her rules am always complying,

no matter how much it keeps me dying. 

I don't really know

am I worth your time?

in your mental state of mind,

because in the depths of mine,

your priceless, and shine,

like the light is divine,

you're perfect in every way I can define,

but to you am I worth a thought,

as if am the one you sought,

or maybe I ought,

to understand you're only a daydream,

my mind plays on me like a scheme,

but no matter how high the climb,

I always keep hope one day you'll be mine,

even if you are for a short while,

my heart will know how it is to smile,

and every single mile,

be worth the pace,

just for that moment when we embrace.

two world theory

Dear my lovely readers,

I hope everyone's life is going fantastic, and you are in a state of peace.

So in the world we live in there are many theories one I support is the many worlds theory. what that means is there is not just this world, but many different worlds were the choices you did not make in the world is the choice you made in another, so in essence we never really make a choice, because we do every single choice we do each in a different world, for example a few years back the singer lily allen retired well in a parallel world she did not retire, but still in another parallel world her first album did not do well, so she never made another album and yet in another the same people that loved her hated her, and the people that hated her loved her.

In other worlds every possible result that could have taken place has in fact taken place, but we just live in the world with one result while in the other worlds the other results took place. it might not seem possible, but everything some how is. I could go more into this, but my mind is not working anymore

idk maybe am just tired from lack of sleep, so good night, but not really, because am not going to bed,

that is all for now,

I love you all deeply,your friend,

VPK

Her Lost Heart

she walks alone,

in search of her own,

ray of light,

through the day and night,

it all ends with a one night stand,

this was not the life she planned,

she was to be the queen,

but broken hearts is all she seen,

because her first love left her broken,

now no words spoken,

can ever do this unjust,

love does not exist, only lust,

lives in her broken soul,

were love she will never again know.

poems that are not good to me

one

please Fish for me,

in your  sea,

of peace, and tranquillity

hook me on your line,

so you be mine,

so I could be in peace,

with in my mind,

please do not throw me back,

so my feeling subtract,

keep me forever,

and let me go never.

two

I rest my head,

in the kingdom of broken hearts,

were my heart has been pierced,

by the arrows of rejection,

now I bleed to death,

since the day you left,

now with every breath,

that comes, and passes,

makes me feel lost,

among the broken hearted masses,

wishing you were here,

so my broken heart disappear.

three

I can't write,
that darkens my light,
my eyes can see,
yet I am blind,
my ear hear,
but they are deaf,
I live in fiction,
away from your truth,
but in the city of lies,
we found each other,
you are the paper,
to my pen,
without you all is  pretend,
in this hell,
you are my heaven.

Sequel films are wack

Dear my lovely readers,

I hope all is going well with you, and you are in a state of peace,

so a few days back on formspring, formspring asked "Do you like movie sequels?" and it got me thinking why is it part two's and so on always seem to suck? don't get me wrong there have been a few good sequels, but for every good one there has two be about ten bad ones, and it's like why? i mean do they not use the same writers,  is it the studio or maybe there is some kind of law that says most sequels have to suck, and this is not just limited to films, but music too, but this post is about films, so with that being sad here is some of the worst sequels ever made.

EVERY SINGLE AMERICAN PIE FILM 

ok, first of all there has to be about 20 sequels to the first American pie film, and every one of them are pure rubbish, the jokes are the same, the acting is not that good, and they films are only being made to make the film company money, and no reason what so ever. now they have another film out witht he first actors from the first film, so it might be ok, but then again american pie two, and wedding had the same actors as the first, and both films were not too funny, so I will not hold my breath on that one. 

The Phantom Menace

ok, so everyone loves the first um wait last three star wars, because for some reason part 4-6 came out first, but that's beside the point, but then one day part one came out, and before it came out everyone thought it was going to be a good film, but oh man how we were all wrong, the story is shit, the acting is shit, and most of all it introduced us to the shittiest character in star wars history, 

Jar Jar  fucking Binks, who must have been created when mr.lucas was either high off drugs, drunk off his ass or a sign he is losing his mind, because jar jar is pure rubbish. there was two more star wars after this, and both were not good, but both were light years better than this crap, and oh by the way if you are showing the star wars films to someone who has not seen them make sure you show part 4-6 first, because if you show 1-3 first it will tell them darth vader is luke's father, and ruin it for them.

ALL THE LAND BEFORE TIMES

OK I really hate these films, and they make me happy the dinosaurs  died off, because if this is how they lived then they all should have died off in the worst way possible. the first film did not dumb it down for kids, there was no corny songs, the story was great, and films like the lion king copied it, because it was so great (yes the lion king copied lots from the land before time), but then they decided to make sequels, and everyone of them sucked, ok first lets point out the biggest mistake they made Don Bluth, Steven Spielberg and George Lucas each whom were involved n the first film had nothing to do with any of the sequels, and unlike the first film which did not dumb it down, or have pointless songs these films were filled with them, and to make it worst in every single film they stopped the bad guy(s) the same way I mean it worked in the first film, but they could have did something different in the other films, and then they started bringing in stupid extra characters that we did not need. bottom line is go, and see the first film it's a classic, but every film after is shit.

TEENAGE MUTANT NINJA TURTLES III

OK, there is nothing I can say about how crappy this film is that I have not already said, but if you were to ever watch this crime against humanity may GOD have mercy on your eye, because after seen this you will want to ripe them out of your head. this is by far the worst film I ever seen, but maybe I say that, because I love TMNT, so much, but don't worry film there is a good chance the shit Bay comes out with will be even worse.

ALL MOST EVERY DISNEY FILM EVER MADE

ok,, before I start, and before anyone says am just a Disney hater let me start of by saying I love Disney, I love there films, I loved there cartoons from the past such as darkwing duck, I always loved there T.V shows, even today when people say Disney's T.V shows are not that good I find them to be good, and worth watching, but for some reason Disney has not made many good sequels, and I think the problem is while the first films are made with great productions the sequels look more like they are made for a saturday morning cartoon (R.I.P Saturday morning cartoons, oh how I miss you) and that might work for Saturday morning cartoons, but not for films, and another problem is they are poorly written. don't get me wrong not all of them are bad, but most are. the Lion King two was good, but part three, or umm one and a half was pure shit, and ruined the first film, every beauty and the beast was bad, because it tried to retell the story from the first one, because let's face it there is not much of a story you could tell after the first. A problem with Disney sequels is most of them either just tell the same story over most times through the children of the people from the first, tell a story that took place before the first film which means we already knows what happens I mean other films do this, but Disney does it bad most times. I also have to note that nearly every single Disney Pixar sequel has been good.

ALL MOST EVERY SINGLE DIRECT TO VIDEO FILM EVER MADE

OK, so I know most films from above were direct to video, but they deserved there own place on this list, and that's why I did it this way, but that's besides the point. when ever I see a film I like is having a part two my first thought is I hope this is not shit, but when ever I see the sequel is going to be a direct to video I think to me self, yup this will be shit, most part two's and threes, or in American pies case part 56 are only made for the purpose of either making money, or a tax write off or for some crazy reason the company thinks they can make a good film, and let's face it the only reason these films are made is to make money, because they know people will buy these films based on the name.

there are tones of films I could put on this list, and am sure the few of you who read this blog are thinking to yourself "how could he not talk about this film" but these were the first that came to my mind,

that is all for now, 

I love you all deeply,

your friend,

VPK

Dear Death,

Dear my lovely death,

I really enjoy your sweet kisses,

but it is now time that I left,

you my dear mistress,

you might think everything was well,

but being with you was a depression,

and like living in a cold hell,

so I am heading in a better direction,

I know you lust for me to stay,

but with you it's only sorrow,

so from you am going away,

and smiling at a better tomorrow,

and a happy today.

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My love for you is like a flower in the rain,

but even with all these drops,

my love for you shall always remain,

like a never ending fire that  burns

no weather can put my love out,

and no matter how the world turns

 my love shall never know an end

and shall always be with all my heart,

and I will always love you deeply, my dear friend.

why Batman is the greatest comic book character ever created

Dear my lovely Readers,

I hope all is going good for you, and you are at peace with the world, and you joy grows like a beautiful flower, as you all are.

so coming out this July is another new Batman film called The Dark Knight Rises, and you can pretty much bet your life savings this film will be good, but then come to think about it everything batman is good, and that is one of the reasons he is the greatest comic book character ever made, because it always works no matter what.

To begin, weather Batman is a light hearted crime fighter as in the Adam West Batman, which btw is one of the best intros to a TV show ever

or the dark story of the dark knight films, and other Batmans the story always works, and makes you want to watch it more. that would not work with most other comic book characters. if Wolverine was not like he was no one would like him, but with Batman it's different.

To continue, The story is very well written, and not only shows you the personal stuggles of Batman, but also the Villains, so it is not just he is the  Villain  role, but there are reasons why he is the way he is, for example Mr. Freeze is into crime to raise funds for his terminally ill, cryogenically frozen wife, I mean watch this video from the Batman Animated series

you can see that he is not "evil" for the sake of being evil, but, because he lost his wife, and therefore lost everything, so one has sympothy for him, and this is not just the case for Mr.Freeze, but many other  antagonist in the Batman world.


Third of all, the films, even the ones that are only ok are still good, and worth watching, but I can not say that about other films based on comic books, the third X-men film was shit, all the psider man films were shit, and not all the super man films were good, oh, and hulk, fantastic four, and others sucked too, but even the not as good as the other batman films are worth watching, and you can do the same story, yet make it different, for example in tim burton's batman, his joker, played by legendary actor jack nicholson, is different from 
 Christopher Nolan's The Dark Knight joker, played by heath ledger (Rest In Peace),  yet both work, because for some reason it always works with a Batman film, maybe it is the writers, maybe it is the actors, maybe the story, but no matter what it is it always works in the end.

In Conclusion, no matter what it is, weather it is a comic, a cartoon, a live action T>v show, or a film everything Batman is good, no matter if Batman is a light hearted crime fighter, or a person with persona; struggles it works, no matter if the antagonist has a dark story, or not it works, no matter what it works when it comes to Batman.

think you for your time,
That is all for now,
your friend,
VPK

Dear michael bay,

Dear Michael bay,

so you have made some films I liked over the years such as Bad Boys, The Rock and Armageddon, and I thought you were a decent director, but oh Mr.Bay how you over the years have changed that view, and now all the films you make are nothing but a bay of shit.

First of all Mr,Bay you need to stop making films based on cartoons I grew up watching, because the only thing you do is rape them, and change too much. All your Transformers films sucked big time, but here is a crime worse than what you did to the Transformers, you have the damn nerves to change the Teenage MUTANT Ninja Turtles into freakin' aliens.

Aliens...really? do you not know that there is a difference between aliens and mutants? why must you take what is not broken, and break it then take a shit on it with your shitty ideas? oh Mr.Bay you are not alone in this, but I also put blame on the channel nickelodeon whom made the stupid choice of hiring you to make the films. really Nick, Really? did you not see how much people hated what he did to The Transformers, but maybe you are on board for these shitty changes since you are changing the weapons of the turtles, so guess what, Fuck you too.

I know you will continue to make shitty films, and I wish like the Spider Man films the company that pays for the film would step in after your shitty films, and say nope we are not letting you do another one, and we are rebooting the films, so people can get what they really want.

speaking of rebooting, why are you even rebooting TMNT? we rather just continue the story with the shredder coming back, but no you want to start over, and make them aliens.. what other changes will you make? is splinter going to go from being a rat to a talking tree, will  shredder be a pirate. will April's name be changed to May, will the Foot clan be come the hand clan, will Karai no longer exist, or exist as a male rabbit that can surf?

you know who is a good director? Christopher Nolan, both  Batman Begins, and The Dark Knight are great films, and unlike you Mr.Bay he did not ruin the films by changing anything to feed his ego, and guess what, The Dark Knight Rises wil be great too unlike anything you make these days, so maybe you should go take notes from him, but then again you are too much of a wanker, and the difference between you two is if you made the Dark Knight films Batman be an alien bat from mars were if Nolan was to make a TMNT film he get everything right, and probably make the best TMNT film ever

so in closing Mr.Bay, please stop being a twat, and making films based on cartoons I use to watch, but instead make your own damn films based on your own damn ideas, because no one will give any thought to how crappy the film is, because at least your not ruining something, or better yet just retire, and go became a monk, so we never have to see you again, and while were at changing things here is an idea for you since you like to change things, go change your name to the classic cartoon rapist, because all you do is rape classic cartoons.

your Enemy,
VPK

P.S you better in your life never make a film based on Thundercats, and Voltron

P.S part two: this is how I feel in case you are too dumb to understand I am saying fuck you Mr.Bay

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video courtesy of Aggressive Comix

The frustration of being a Wu-Tang fan

Dear my lovely readers.

I hope all is going fantastic for you, and your world is filled with joy,

so as many of you know, should know or will know after this post the Hip Hop group known as the Wu-Tang Clan is my favourite band of all time in all music. They have been since they first came out in 1993. Wu tang is a ground breaking band for many reasons, they are the first Hip Hop group with so many members, and different styles. Wu tang also made history by signing a ground breaking contract were they could all sign solo deals with another record company if they liked (looking back that was a dumb move by loud records) Wu has and always will be my favourite group, however being a fan of the Wu is frustrating for a few simple reasons that are annoying, and in my view is what kept them from being greater than what they are.

Reason Number One

 it takes them forever to come out with new albums. Here is what I mean the first Wu Tang album came out in the year of 1993, so they been out for 20 years next year in 2013, so how many group albums do you think they have? ten? fifteen? nope try five, five freaking albums in 20 years. am not genius at maths, but I think that is an album every four years I mean I know bands who have five albums in five years.

Reason Number Two

Oh it does not just end with band albums besides Ghostface Killah, and Raekwon it also takes them forever to make solo albums. Method man has been coming out with his "final" (in music final means not for long" for like 3 years.

Reason Number Three

the reason they can never come out with albums fast enough all breaks down to the fact the members of the Wu-Tang are not on the same page, hell am not even sure they are even in the same book. you might think they all chill with each other, but nope only once in a while. It's pretty much like they are only a band by name, but after the joe budden thing (joe was talking shit about Method man, so raekwon punched him in the eye) I guess they are still a "family" in a way.

Over the years The Wu's music has not been as good as it was when they first came out, and there last album 8 diagrams can be considered their Chinese Democracy (any chance I get to point out how shitty that album is Axl am going to take until the whole world knows you fucked up GnR), however the only difference is 8 diagrams is at least an ok album, and once in a great while worth listening to were Chinese Democracy is just pure rubbish, but hear is what I mean this is a song from their album the W

and this is from their last album

but I guess tyhey just got older, or as the other 8 members would put it the Rza is just nuts these days as the other eight members hated the album, and am not sure, but I think they never perform any songs at concerts from the album

that is all for now,

I love you all deeply,

your friend,

VPK

Dear Axl Rose,

Dear Axl Rose,

when I was little a group came out known as Guns n' Roses, and the first video I seen of yours was Welcome To The Jungle, 

and I was in love, and at the age of five in the year of 1987 Appetite for Destruction was the first album I ever had, and I loved it. slash was, and still is the greatest guitar player of all time, and I loved your vocals Axl. I mean listen to this song  sweet child o mine, the lyrics, and the guitar are purely amazing!!!!

and GnR came out with two more great albums Use Your Illusion I and II that had great songs like this,

     

but then Guns n' Roses broke up, and the album they promised us Chines Democracy became a dream, that for years looked like it was never going to happen, but years later this happened 

       

and I was like no fucking way, and my joy went through the roof, but that was short lived when I seem it was not the original GnR, but a "new" version in which you tried to replace people such as the legend Slash

with some guy who wears a KFC bucket on his head 

don't get me wrong Mr.Head is not bad, but he is no slash, but despite this I had hope that Chines Democracy was still going to be worth the wait, but damn was I wrong, and the album was pure shit, and a waste of waiting for. 

then the original Guns n' Roses gets inducted into the Rock and Roll Hall of Fame, but then you have the nerve to say you want nothing to do with them? well guess what with out them you fucking suck,  your "new" version of GnR fucking sucks, and you are a pure piece of shit, so fuck you!!!!

thank you for your time Axl, but stop making music unless you stop being a dick, and reunite with the Original GnR, but if you do continue to make the crappy music you have been making aka Chines Democracy please for the love of God, man, animals everything do not call it Guns n' Roses, because you're only lying.

that is all for now,

your friend,

VPK