update

Dear my lovely readers,

I hope everyone is doing well, and you're all in peace,

so today I made a discovery about myself, and was the source of my depression. you see these last few months I have for the most part been happy, but why? I mean how come am happy now, but before I could never be happy? was it the meds? nope those shits don't work? is it the weed I only smoke once in a while? nope, because I always go through periods of smoking, and not smoking, and not much changed, but then today I finally seen what it was, and the one thing I have not been even thinking about, so what is it?

....welll

because of what it is I am not even going to say, but now I know what was the reason for all my sorrow, and now I know the cancer that it has all been, and will always be, so what can I do about it? for the most part nothing, but since I know what the common factor of my sorrow is I know now how to deal with it, and that is to do what I been doing for these last few months, but then again that's hard, but fuck it

in  other news that pisses me off is my grandparents have to move out of their house this week, or next, and it pisses me off to no end, because they lived there for forty one years, so why do they have to move you ask? well you see my grandfather was going to buy the house from his best friend, sam, but then sam got sick, and lost his mind, and passed away, and rather than his wife selling it to my grandfather like sam was going to do she sold it to someone else, however that person allowed my grandparents to live there, so everything was cake, but then all the sudden that wanker was like: "oh we are going to move in there, so you have to move" and that is just wack all around. if anyone of them die I will blame them even if it's not their fault, because my grandmother is already really sad over this, and she is the last one I have, and is ninety-one.

in even other news I got a new phone,  droid, so if idk you want my number just ask for it, and I will give it to you., and also I have Instagram, so follow me on there my name is insomnivic (which in case you did not know is a combo between insomnia, and my name vic)

me first pic xD

that is all for now,
may peace be with everyone of you,
I love you all deeply,
your friend,
VPK