seeing a psychologist

Dear my lovely readers.

as most of you know I have been seeing a psychologist, and while at first it has been good, I know find it to be pointless, because simply she has yet to ask me why I am sad, or what bothers me, but instead she just puts me on medication as if there is no need to talk about anything, because these meds will make life better, sorry I did not call your office to be put on meds, but I called you, because I am depressed, and want to get help, for that my regular doctor could have put me on the meds, and I could have saved time, do you know how hard it is for me to call someone, and admit I need help with this, or to even talk about it, and by the way, those meds are not working. I hope they are not placebos, because that would be the stupidest thing to give me. then I see a therapist, whom also has not asked me about these things, but asks me about fantasy football, wtf I could go to a bar, a friends house, or any other place to talk about sports, I want to talk about why I hate myself, not who should you start at QB.

what bothers me a lot about being sad is the fact I am sad, because I know people have it a lot worse, and I know some of my friends, and people I know are going through harder times right now, so it makes me feel guilty for being this way when I should be happy, but I can't help it

ohm and so as you also know I take pills for insomnia, hmm it is after 2:30 in the A.M, so I guess those too are not working


sorry for the rant, but just wanted to get this off my thoughts

until next time,
I love you all deeply
your friend,
VPK