Being A Drug Dealer Is Lonely

Dear the people that will read this,



Years ago, When I use to spend my days smoking pot I was very lonely as I am now, but back in those days I would spend lots of my time with a close friend of mine, and he was a major drug dealer, and pretty much the opposite of myself, because while very few people know of me everyone knows of him, and most people I know (in life outside the internet) only know of me, because of him, but none the less we were close, and still are, so anyway one day I said to him it must feel pretty good to have everyone like you, because just like now I felt alone back then too, and he looked at me, and said "people don't like me they only like me, because I have what they want, drugs, otherwise I never see them, and the love a drug dealer feels is false" So I guess if you have what people want they all love you, but only for pretend, and very little love is ever real in this cold world, and now as it didn't make much sense back, then, but today I am pretty happy with the few friends I have, and never want to be a part of a big crowd, but know this: my love I have for everyone is as real as ones feelings; which are the only thing real with yourself!!!! None the less even if I only belong with those of rejected society am happy with who I am, and will live life until my days come to a close!!!!

That is all for now,
Love,
Your friend,
VP.K

Title this what ever you wish!!!!

Everything is clear in black and white,

The vivid colours of your light,

you could not escape my mind, 

the joy you brought my sorrow at the time,

I knew this all; ends the same,

as everyone else that came,

but you picked me up,

just to leave your bullet.

once again in my broken soul,

for this myself I blame,

When ever I enter the house of love.

I leave only with pain,

nothing ever gets better,

the coldness of the weather,

I wish are friendship.

would never have been born,

now the memory is a beautiful rose,

with a bitter thorn,

but still the smell is sweet,

yet my pen gently weeps

and that time is obsolete,

only my notebook gives it reflection,

of those days of deception.

,I am now on another route,

but thanks to you,

I at least know what happiness is about!!!!

2;24 a.m

No devil sits on my shoulder,

but he dwells in between my eyes,

were he gives me no closure,

but a mind full of flies,

that are attracted to his rubbish,

with this sickness,

he forces me to punish,

myself, and beg for forgiveness,

and has me believing,

the distance from me to Yahweh,

is only close when am dreaming,

but in reality is just too far away,

but in the word of truth I soak,

and I am on my way to Rome,

were the tempter's chains will be broke,

and his house shall be my home,

but in the meantime I shall follow Him,

as each day I take another step towards repentance,

were a new me shall begin,

were he will no longer over me have ascendance.

yup

The mind is a ocean of deep waters,

were many thoughts go to drown,

and dreams are given birth,

but many pregnancies end in abortion,

before they are ever delivered,

so they never see the light of existence,

but alive, or dead there's no difference,

since they can't be with out the other,

so nothing ever comes to its demise,

even when the birds pick upon their body,

of lifelessness lucidity!!!!

Today was Just Another Day

Dear who ever will take the time to read this,

So today is another day in my book called life, and really I did a lot of thinking today as I do everyday, and I realized am not sure if am ever happy, sad or in between, and maybe am too caught up in my own thoughts, or feelings, and to be honest am not sure what the difference between the two are, like my feelings revolve around my thoughts, and my thoughts revolve around my feelings. I did realize that am very much an introvert, and maybe you think am not shy, because I post a lot of what I think on Twitter, Facebook, and where ever else, but the truth is am very shy, and I only talk when there is a small group, and shut myself off from the world when in large groups, and to truthfully I like it better that way, because I will never fit in with a large group of people, and I really just rather be alone most times.

I was thinking; I wonder if people do good, and bad things based on the events that either happened in their life, or events they witnessed, for example a person might not have at one time gave food to a starving person, and they subconsciously might have felt guilty about that, so they later on in life give to the poor, and the hungry. am not saying everything good, or bad is done for that reason, but just a thought, and am allowed to have thoughts even if they cause me anguish, or joy at the same time.

Speaking of thinking; today I was with my friends, and I noticed they were talking about someone, and I was really not into the conversation, but I noticed this about people; people find lots of joy when they point out out another person's wrongs, like it makes them forget about all of theirs, and for a short time brings them a sort of joy, but it's too bad to has to come at another's pain, but with that said am going to say this if you want to do the same to me please go ahead, because your joy matters more than my pain, but maybe that's the problem I care too much about other peoples feelings more than my own, and that does not work out to well for my own well being, but in the end it will all be worth the torment as long as I can sit with HIM forever!!!!

I really don't have much more to write about, but maybe later I will, I hope your days come with peace, and that you are in peace, but really I just want to know one thing before I leave; is it OK with you if I am myself rather than the person who I am not?

Thank you for your time,

Love,

your friend,

VPK.

The Perks of Being a Wallflower; The Film

Greetings my lovely readers, I hope you are doing well, and you are in peace.

So I recently saw the film The Perks of Being a Wallflower; which is based on the book by the same title written by Stephen Chbosky, and if you have not read the book I would recommend you take the time out, and do so, but any how the film is really good, and sticks to the book pretty good something I like a lot, because lots of films based on books change a lot of what the book was about, and most times end up just being rubbish. Also I like to point out the music in the film is pretty good, and goes pretty good with the film. If you can go to your local cinema, or one near by, and see the film, but if your local cinema is not for some reason playing this film, than watch it on line, or whatever.

You know there's a weird feeling I get when I think about the book/film, like it's my favourite book, but it makes me think about things I rather not think about, so to be honest am not sure if after seeing the film am happy, sad or maybe in a place in between the two; Either way am happy I finally got to see the film, and am happy I was told to read the book.

that is all for now,
I love you all deeply,
your friend,
VPK

Broken Love

We were built with passion,

But now are embraces are cold,

and the love is now absent,

and was nothing, but fool's gold,

We use to get lost in each others eyes,

But now are truth gets lost in our lies,

We had the perfect unity,

now we point the finger every opportunity,

When we say "I love you" are lifeless,

and we are stuck in this crisis,

with no way to  elude,

are everlasting feud,

I am your husband, you are my wife,

and together we are one in this unending strife.