Today was Just Another Day

Dear who ever will take the time to read this,

So today is another day in my book called life, and really I did a lot of thinking today as I do everyday, and I realized am not sure if am ever happy, sad or in between, and maybe am too caught up in my own thoughts, or feelings, and to be honest am not sure what the difference between the two are, like my feelings revolve around my thoughts, and my thoughts revolve around my feelings. I did realize that am very much an introvert, and maybe you think am not shy, because I post a lot of what I think on Twitter, Facebook, and where ever else, but the truth is am very shy, and I only talk when there is a small group, and shut myself off from the world when in large groups, and to truthfully I like it better that way, because I will never fit in with a large group of people, and I really just rather be alone most times.

I was thinking; I wonder if people do good, and bad things based on the events that either happened in their life, or events they witnessed, for example a person might not have at one time gave food to a starving person, and they subconsciously might have felt guilty about that, so they later on in life give to the poor, and the hungry. am not saying everything good, or bad is done for that reason, but just a thought, and am allowed to have thoughts even if they cause me anguish, or joy at the same time.

Speaking of thinking; today I was with my friends, and I noticed they were talking about someone, and I was really not into the conversation, but I noticed this about people; people find lots of joy when they point out out another person's wrongs, like it makes them forget about all of theirs, and for a short time brings them a sort of joy, but it's too bad to has to come at another's pain, but with that said am going to say this if you want to do the same to me please go ahead, because your joy matters more than my pain, but maybe that's the problem I care too much about other peoples feelings more than my own, and that does not work out to well for my own well being, but in the end it will all be worth the torment as long as I can sit with HIM forever!!!!

I really don't have much more to write about, but maybe later I will, I hope your days come with peace, and that you are in peace, but really I just want to know one thing before I leave; is it OK with you if I am myself rather than the person who I am not?

Thank you for your time,

Love,

your friend,

VPK.