not feeling depressed, but diabetes is a mess

Dear my lovely readers,

     Greetings, I hope all is going well for you, and things continue to grow for the better. I have found myself being happy as of late, and at peace with myself: something I have not been in years. I wish I could tell you it was some medication am on, but I don't take any medication for depression since it only either makes you a zombie, or worse off than you already are.

     Being at peace with myself is a Beaufort feeling, and am n longer letting sorrow dictate my life, and blind me, however not all news is good when it comes to my diabetes as I can not for the life of me get my sugar under control. now a good sugar level is between 90-145, but what is mine you ask? well hear is a pic of my testing meter

maybe it is just tellin' me Hi

     how Hi is Hi you ask? higher than 600. Diabetes has pretty much f*ucked my body up. I have diabetic neuropathy in my feet, the nerves in my stomach are messed up (my stomach is why am in the hospital a lot) and my vision is not the best.

     I am currently on two different insulins, one I take at night, and is slow acting called lantus 

sticking my self with a needle is not fun

and one I take through out the day based on what my blood sugar level is called novolog

needles do not hurt me 

     and since my sugar is still doing bad the next step would be for them to install an insulin pump which I do not want. basically what the pump does is pump insulin into your body 24 hours a day, but like I said I rather not have one. it looks like this, like an MP3 player, or something. xD

that is not my body

     That is all for now, thank you all for reading my blog post, and for your time,

I love you all deeply,

Love, your friend,

VPK.

P.S this is a random pic of my garden, or backyard to you Americans :)

 somewhere in this garden is three dogs <3