Open letter

I write this open letter,
in hopes of keeping my mind together,
so any eyes that come across,
what is written of my thoughts,
I hope you understand clearly,
that I love you all dearly,
but life is not so peachy,
and I don't know what keeps me,
from closing my eyes never to again open,
maybe I am just hopein',
that the time shall come,
that I don't feel numb,
and the only thing I'm isolated from,
is sorrow's brutal chains,
and whips that leave me in pain,
with depression that controls my brain,
but as fro right now,
I don't know how,
from these thoughts to get freedom,
even though I know I don't need them,
but still my hope exist everyday the sun is in the sky,
therefore I know I can't die,
by my own hands,
even if it feels no one understands,
what I am trying to say,
to them each and every day,
so I wrote this letter,
in hopes you understand me better,
and everything will soon click,
love, your friend, vic