The mirror

Dear my lovely readers,

it is after 3:30 in the morning, and I have figured out that night time is the best time to blog. when you wake up in the morning time, and look in the mirror, do you see the same person when you look at your reflection later that night? at times, yes, but most times, no, because thing happen through out the day that change us to not see the same person, some are life changing, some are small, and over time won't even be a memory worth remembering. at times when we look in the mirror we don't even recognize the person looking back at us, as we at times change, because the influence of others, this can be bad if we let those people make us a worse person than what we are, and let them manipulate us, but good if those people better us. some people are one way for some, yet the opposite for others, some look one way, but are the other way. this is when you must look deep with in your self to see what is right from wrong,

In the universe, you have to try to find peace with everything that exist, but also try to change those things that cause conflict for that bring out the worst of us. moat who read this would agree that war is bad, and peace is a better thing to have, yet we have wars going on all around the world, and the reason for this is, because the method in which we try to find peace is by war, and that simply will not work, it is like with the drug heroin, they give people Methadone to get off H, but the only thing it does is lead them to being addicted to Methadone, in other words, when we fight a war to get peace, it only leads to more conflict.

Speaking of conflict, I sometimes find myself in conflict with myself, because how I want humanity to be is different from how humanity is. I have great compassion for people, even people I just meet, and sometimes I find myself caring about them even when I know the world would tell me not to, because those people probably don't do the same for me, but I lack the ability to not care, so I sacrifice my self knowing the feeling is not the same, sometimes I want to just give up, but in the conflict of self, my compassion will always win even if my soul is broken a million times.

I am going to continue to pray for those of you that are going through rough times in your life, because I worry about you all, and to my Atheist sisters, and brothers, don't look at that, and think, or say "what is he praying to?", but instead look at it, as someone that cares, and is concerned about you, look at it, as a friend that loves you.

Mediation is good for the soul, whether you believe in a God, many Gods, no God, or what ever, you should do it to relax your mind, and rest your soul, simply by having a conversation with your self deep with in your thoughts, and peacefully trying to find solutions to the problems that cause us grief. Remember no one is with out conflict in their life, even the most peacefully person in the world faces dilemmas, the key is to stay positive, caring, and compassionate even when the world wants you to be the opposite way.

that is all for now,

I love you all very deeply
your friend,
VPK

title this what ever you want

liquid is needed for the dry bones
the kings need to be took of the thrones
it does not matter if you
change the one who rules
they still rule the fools
they fall for all the tricks
victims of the wicked politics
those who are dumb, deaf and blind
led wrongfully by the evil swine
the sheep being lead deep
into the deadly snakes pit
being squeezed until they submit
to the ways of the system
many to brainwashed to see
they are a murder victim
fack the government
they are not McDonald's
I am not lovin it
blinded by the illusion
of the Republicans and Democrats
never trusting a word said
by the filthy stinking rats

another one I guess

one of the only to care
but you know what my dear?
you throw me under the bus
all. because of the fuss
that was wrongfully said
that was planted like a seed
deep with in your head
so now you dislike me indeed
but you should be aware
I will never stop to care
my friendship love will
always be strong, and there
for you to lean on like
like a strong brick wall
every time you have a fall
so matter how your feel my friend
I will be there for you until the end

what ever this is

Dear my lovely readers,

hello I am victor, and I have Insomnia, that is why I am named Insomnivic on twitter, I have pills, my doctor wants me to take to get to sleep, but guess I did not take them. do you really care about this? I don't know, I don't know what anyone cares about, only myself, people can claim to care about something, but people claim Columbus discovered America, and we know that shit is a lie.

my mind is wondering in many directions right now, but it all comes back to the same point, love is the only thing that exist that actuarial motivates people, don't think it is true? think of anything in your life you seek, and I guarantee love some how ties in to it, remember love has many different forms, and looks, we just only think of love as it being between two lovers, or friends, but it exist in other ways, in ways we simply can't understand. love us the father of sorrow, joy and hate. people suffer from sorrow, because people don't love them, people have joy, because of love and people hate, because they have a love for the opposite thing they hate.



people judge people, and people hate that, but in reality(what ever that is) people judge people for judging them, so we are all judgemental,

I guess this is all confusing,

maybe I am stupid, maybe you just don't understand, maybe the truth is both

that is all I am too tired for this
your friend,
VPK

it is not a good feeling

Dear my lovely readers,

it is not a good feeling to get randomly sad, and not bo the reason(s) why. you sit, and think of why you are sad, but the only thing you really do is just add on to why you were sad in the first place, and are doing nothing but adding the wood of sadness to the fire of sorrow, that burns your soul, and the only thing left after is ashes of tears you cried. I wish I could begin to even know why I get sad for no reason when I have been happy, life be a lot easier, or at least this be easier to deal with.

that is all for now,
love, your friend
VPK

wordless song

I take no joy, or pleasure
by any means, or measure
I only wish you'd get better
what is not seen in a eyes view
the bitter coldness, the true
world of the lost bird who
tries to fly, but has no wings
the wordless song he sings
the strings he plays on a guitar
in front of the crowd at the bar
the people are too drunk to hear
a word he says, but they cheer
he has them feeing alive and well
but he personally lives in hell
he is dying inside slowly
a secret he keeps to himself only
he wishes he could tell them
but keeps this world hidden
and the next song he starts to begin
what he lives makes him die
and when he dies he will live
the wordless song he sings

to the people who read, and don't read my blog

Dear my lovely readers.

I want you to know that I read, hear and see how lots of you are going through hard times with one thing, or another, and I want you to know that I am concerned, and keeping you all in my thoughts, and prayers. I worry not only about those of you who read my blog, but also those who don't. I want everyone to know this, no matter who you are, no matter if we talk, or not, what it is that is making life hard, you can always come talk to me, and I will always have open arms, an open heart and an open mind and open ears for you <3.

I love you all deeply,
your friend,
VPK