Life

I don't want to suffer anymore. I can't walk anymore, I'm always in pain, I  never see  my friends (I  don't want them to see me  like this.) I'm in dialysis thee times a week, I'm in the hospital more often than not,  I'm always sick, I can hardly see in my right eye, I had three strokes, I suffer from always having seizures, there is much more not even going to talk  about. I just want to know were is my chance to smile?

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You Know Something.

Life is lovely at times. :) 

Too Many Broken Hearts

Too many broken hearts,

left her soul feeling cursed,

everything will go wrong,

the feeling came first,

She thought was I ever happy,

or was it all an illusion?

in this world of truth, and lies,

every thought is confusing,

as her tears come from,

the clouds of her pain,

in the pleasure of others joy,

The notes of the song are sweet,

but the taste it leaves is sour,

The wound of a broken heart

starts so small,

but grows like a cancer,

until her soul and thoughts,

grow very bitter,

but every tunnel,

has a light at the end,

so don't keep yourself down,

or in these feelings you'll drown,

so always try to swim,

'Cause in time,

what's broken can heal,

and love will come,

and cure all the hurt,

that you feel,

and joy will come,

like the smile on a mother's face,

when she hears

the laughter of her child,

so keep your heart open,

Because after the storm 

of the heartbreaking rain,

The sunshine of love will shine,

and dry up the waters of pain.

Father

Dear my father,

why did you not bother,

to be in the life of your son?

why did you have to shun,

your child away?

why the empty nights and day?

was it something I did,

that made you forbid,

yourself from being present,

in your offspring's development?

you have left me,

with a feeling of empty,

in words I can't truly express,

I try not to depress,

over what could have been,

but I wish we could star over again,

because maybe you do things different,

and be in my life from when I was an infant,

but you can't change the past,

and in today's time at last,

you are a part of my life,

so that lessons the strife,

and our relationship is expanding,

and it gave me the understanding,

of what it means to forgive,

all that have wronged us each day we live.

Lost

Your life is miserable,

but as long as there's snow,

you will bargain your soul,

to play in the the snake's pit,

to fill your black hole,

the venom doesn't bother you,

as long as the result is pleasant,

you try to change,

but your demons are always present,

and you need your daily fix,

of the devil's cake mix,

you want to go to rehab,

but that's not for you,

and your dealers always in view,

and has your ear,

the sweet sound of candy,

is what you want to hear,

it makes you smile,

but only for a short while,

now you need more,

so your knees work the floor,

in your story of sorrow.

Devils Chasing Me

I have devils chasing me, 

through the day,

I can't get them,

to ever go away,

It's a battle upstream,

of nightmares of my 

broken dreams,

Am lost in this confusing,

from thoughts am abusing,

am alone in recluse,

with these Devils,

that won't let me,

 break loose,

they got my soul,

stuck in a noose,

they keep me shackled

hands and feet stuck,

in their chain,

please let me break free,

from their reign,

and grant me,

my freedom,

and let my soul,

rest peacefully in Eden,

so my wings again,

can soar,

in Heaven once again,

once more.

Wisdom.

You're the most beautiful

 rose in the garden,

your smell is the most pleasant,

Your words are as soothing

as the Sun is bright,

You are the truth

in its purest  form,

you are worth more

than all the riches of Earth,

You're what wise people build upon

and what the fool lacks,

Those without you

You are what THE LORD

built the Universe with,

You are my love

forever. 

Why Infinity Is Not A Number

     Greeting, I hope you are doing well, and you are in peace!!!!

     How often when we use numbers, and want to get the highest number do we say "infinity?" I mean for example let's say Jeff is arguing with Beth, and Beth says "You're dumb times ten" and Jeff replies "Well you're dumb times Infinity" The thing about infinity is it's not a real number, and here is the reason why if infinity was a real number it would mean that numbers end; in other words you can't go any higher than that number, but no matter how high of a number any person can think of you can always get one number higher by simply adding one thus making it imposable to ever have a highest number, so in other words imposable for infinity to exist as an actual number.

     So does that make infinity obsolete? Well no, because you can still use it in some cases to be a substitute word for forever, for instance you can say "Jim signed a contract to work for Phil for an infinity amount of years" which would be the same as saying "Jim signed a contract to work for Phil forever." Another word you can use infinity in place of is eternity, for example you can say "THE LORD is live for infinity" which would be the same as saying "THE LORD will live for eternity."

     So in closing, infinity is not a number, because if it was than numbers would end, but we all know that know matter how high of a number you can always get a higher number by adding one, so infinity is not a number, but infinity can be used in place of words like forever, and eternity making it not disused.

Thank you for your time,
I love you all infinity,
your friend,
VPK!!!!

Do Doctors, And Pharmaceutical Companies Really want Cures?

     So I see a lot of different doctors for different illness, and one day I was in a store named Wal Mart, and I started to think to myself "Do Doctors, And Pharmaceutical Companies Really want Cures?" Now on first hand of the thought was well of course they do, I mean why would they not want a cure for things such as A.I.D.S, Diabetes. and other sicknesses?  Well because it comes down to one word, and that word is money.

     When I say money I don't mean how much it might cost for these cures, but I mean the money they would lose. Think about this if they could come up with a cure for let's say Diabetes there would no longer be a need for  Endocrinologist, and there would be no need for the medication, or for any of the other products that go along with it, and trust me there is a lot of items sold in stores especially for Diabetics that would other wise have no purpose.

Diabetics be in joy to be able to go back to the sugar cereals!!!!

      

and corporations would lose lots of money, and in the words of The Wu-Tang Clan, the legendary Hip Hop group, "Cash Rules Everything Around Me" and trust me as much as we hate to admit it cash is more valuable to them than human lives, but what about the people that do try to find cures?

     Of course in the wicked world of reality is the reality that there are those who are trying hard to find a cure for cancer(s), A.I,D.S and so on, or at least a vaccine, and to those people I take my hat off to for all their efforts, but sadly they are just a small pixel on the big screen t.v of life, and as long as the corporate world controls the money they will control things. Pretty much the Pharmaceutical Companies have a monopoly, and that monopoly is on the drug world.

Buy your drugs from me, because it's legal....

     The Pharmaceutical Companies are like your drug dealers in the city, but the only difference is it's all legal, in fact it works the same way, the doctors are the drug lord who controls the drug trade, the drug companies are the drug dealers with the drugs, and you are the consumer that buys them, and it's all legal, but you know what's funny, the same way a person on illegal drugs will want something stronger in time so too do the people on legal drugs, and sometimes they make people go to rehab for those drugs, but lots of times they just end up giving them more drugs, but hey it's legal....but let's look at this from another perspective.

     If they did find a way to cure every sickness that might mean more people without jobs causing poverty to go up, and so on, but who are we trying to fool? It's pretty much impossible to find a cure for most anything, hell even the Black Death is still around, so yeah it's greed.

     In closing, there are people who work their lives to find cures, or at least a vaccine for major, and minor illnesses such as Jonas Edward Salk, the person who discovered the vaccine for polio, because they care about the good of man, but sadly that world is controlled by the big drug companies, and the doctors who know if a cure was found for what ever they were a doctor for they be out of a job, as would other type of companies who makes tons of money from this world, so to answer my question, it is yes, and no, and that is the world we live in today, and the world your grandparents lived in, and grandchildren will be a part of.

Ching Shih

   

     Lots of people like pirates, and when you think of pirates you think of people such as Black Beard, Capitan Morgan (Maybe, because he has this drink named after him) Capitan Crunch and Captain Jack Sparrow, and others....okay the last two are made up, and one of them might not even be a pirate (as far as I know, like maybe they are both based on a real person?) but the first two are not, and both are legends along with other real life pirates, but here's a funny thing both of them, or any pirate for that matter would tremble in fear to the most ruthless and powerful pirate in the history of the world, Ching Shih, and you want to know a fact about this pirate? well take a look at this pirate.

     That's right the pirate was a woman, and she did not play around, and and that could be why Morgan has this rum drink named after him, because he feared this pirate would take his booty, so he got drunk to deal with this fear.



     So maybe you want to know a little about her career, well read this for Wikipedia, the famouse info website, "The fleet under her command established hegemony over many coastal villages, in some cases even imposing levies and taxes on settlements. According to Robert Antony, Ching Shih "robbed towns, markets, and villages, from Macau to Canton." In 1806 a British officer reported on the terrible fate of those who resisted Ching Shih's pirates. The pirates had nailed an enemy's feet to the deck and then beaten him senseless Contemporary reports from the British admiralty called her “The Terror of the South China."


     The Chinese navy lost sixty-three ships in the attacks. The Red Flag Fleet under Ching Shih's rule could not be defeated — not by Chinese officials, not by the Portuguese navy, and not by the British. Finding it hopeless to defeat her, in 1810, amnesty was offered to all pirates, and Ching Shih took advantage of it She ended her career that year, accepting an amnesty offer from the Chinese government. She kept her loot, and opened a gambling house. She died in 1844, at the age of 69.


     Yeah, she did not uckfay around!!!!

Hello Russia!!!!

So I see a person, or people from Russia reads my blog, and that's pretty cool, but who are you, and how did you find my blog? I can't think of anyone I know via the internet from Russia, so once again thank you for being a reader of my blog, I hope you like it. :)

Love,
Your Blog Author,
VPK

Reincarnation

     Greetings, and peace to the Universes that exist, and those Universe that are soon to be born. So I was in a random mood of thought, and I started to think about reincarnation, because you know thoughts are sometimes random.

     Reincarnation is the belief that after death your soul is reincarnated into a new form of life, and while I don't believe in reincarnation let's say it did exist for the sake of thought, because I have a few questions to ask about the subject:

Question one: If reincarnation is in fact real than does that mean that every person alive today soul has always been, and always will be meaning that every single person has existed from the birth of life?

Question two: Is who, or what we are reincarnated into a random act, or is it determined by what actions we took in the past life?

Question three: If it is not a random act, and let's say for the sake of the upcoming question you are always reincarnated into the species you were in the past life, meaning a human will always be a human, than does that mean a person who is living a horrible life, for example a person that is dying of starvation, was a horrible person in their past life, and they are just being punished for their action in their last life? meaning the Universe is just doing what is sees as "justice?"

Question four: If we can be reincarnated into different forms of life, and what you became was determined by your actions in your last life, and in your next life you were born as an ant, than how would the Universe determine what you are in the next life? Since you would only be doing what an ant does, and really despite their annoyance to humans sometimes ants are neither good, or evil, but simply are.

     Yeah, I need more sleep, or maybe I don't, because who knows maybe in my past life I was a person, or maybe a cat that all I did was sleep, so now I live a life were I seem to have a difficult time sleeping, and insomnia is just my punishment.

Thank you for your time,
love,
your  blog author,
VPK.

Save Me My Father

My feet walk on broken glass,

were my blood stains the ground fast,

I wish I had the wings,

So I could just fly away,

but instead am left with these cuts,

that remind me am shattered,

in so many ways,

as my arms drag my soul,

across the halls of despair,

I lift my head just enough,

in hope to see hope there,

across the way,

but I find my spirits in decay,

Save me my father,

My Heavenly majesty,

save me my father,

from all this agony,

let me make it to your feet,

so I can rest my soul,

because if my journey ends,

with out you in the end,

my struggles were all for nothing.

Alone on The River

Alone on the river,

On sorrow's lonely raft,

Were being apart,

Has cut me in half,

we were together,

for just an instant,

but the next moment,

we were very distant,

Why what comes,

always has to go,

couldn't joy just stay,

and not leave,

me alone with woe?

23/7/13

Over a while in the sea,

over time between you, and me,

at the end of the paragraph,

A conversation filled with laugh,

between two old acquaintances,

about the past sentences,

and a smile for the next letter,

in the journey of desire for the better,

that the next book brings,

on hope's tender wings.

Tired, very Tired

Am so tired,

my eyes are wired for sleep,

but my mind is ready,

to travel in the deep,

and explore worlds unknown,

from future memories shown,

in my past reflection,

a child was born,

then began the storm,

between the weather,

of the cold and warm,

You are not lost,

you just need to be found,

by the king of kings,

with the highest of crowns.

As I Am

The brightness of the sun,

is just too much,

so I leave my eyes closed,

and wait to be alone,

only with the moon,

Away in seclusion,

with my many broken dreams,

and my world of fantasies,

on my island of illusion,

because being alone,

is my rose of beauty!!!!

A Thought For Today, And The Tomorrows.

You know I sit here staring into the abyss of thought, and it pains me to know that despite the lies I would be told if I asked I know the truth that most the clothing I wear, and the products I use were made in sweatshops at the expense of a childes Torture, all so some company can save a dollar. Once you learn of the true ways of this world we live in you realize sorrow is not just a feelin' but an escape!!!!

For No Reason At All Other Than I hear Birds Singing....

We are a collection of souls that live in a society that lives in a Universe that has love, hate, lust, that in which is in between, anime, laughter, drama, the sun, Moon, Stars, planets, heaven, hell, gods, angels, demons, friends, family, enemies, happiness, depression, the formation of thoughts, the dark, light, chaos, order, music that the outside world can hear, music that is only heard with in our soul, resurrection of the mental dead, resurrection of life, books, philosophy, films, politics, and many things that are known to humans, and the things only a select few can understand such as humanoid interfaces, time travellers, espers and other forms of life those lucky enough to know of, and understand that life is a mystery that shall never be fully solved by the human mind. if you want to know the point of this post, and why I made it, just look deep in your soul and fall deep into the bliss of thoughts, and travel to the many different Universe that exist in your mind!!!!