Words To My Friend(s)

I see the rain that falls from your eyes,

As you live life in a disguise,

you keep your head held high,

but in your heart you wish to die,

as you feel as none will ever understand,

your mind's hell of always feeling damned,

But you are my very dear friend,

and to you these words I send,

in hope your sorrow they will end,

sometimes as you I feel the same way,

Asking my self will the pain go away?

but the Lord's light shall forever stay,

and the darkness shall perish,

and by the word you shall nourish,

in life's most beautiful fruit,

That in which the devils can not pollute,

and free your thoughts from the enemy,

and live your life in a state of serenity!!!!

A Look At Christmas!!!!

Dear my lovely readers,




I hope all is going great for you, and you are in peace!!!!


Well the world did not end today, so I guess I will continue to write blogs!!!!


Christmas is in a few days, and I want to take a closer look at the holiday. Many people celebrate Christmas as the day Yahshua (Jesus) was born, but actually Yahshua was not born on December 25, or even close, but he was born probably around September, and the reason many think it is September is, because in the Bible it is written that the shepherds were tending to their flock, so it had to be during a warmer month Christmas, which is seen as a Christian holiday actually did not start off that way, but started off as a pagan holiday.


To continue, originally Christmas was a week long pagan holiday that took place between the 17-25 called Saturnalia; During this week all the courts in Rome were closed, and it was a week of lawlessness in which it is said men would get drunk, beat their wives, exchange gifts, have sex with each other, and injure people with out having to worry at all about the law. Each City in The Roman Empire would choose one person to be the enemy of the Roman people, and to represent the Lord of Misrule; this person was forced to indulge in food and other physical pleasures, and on the last day of Saturnalia The Roman authorities thought they were fighting off the forces of evil by brutally murdering the person despite the fact he, or she was forced by the Romans to do all this, and was more than likely innocent. So the question you might be asking is "well how than did Christmas go from being a pagan holiday to being about the birth of Yahshua?


Third,, the reason for the change from being a pagan holiday to a day seen as the birth of Yahshua is, because when the Catholic church started to get more power, and wanted to convert the pagans into Christians they decided to keep many pagan holidays such as Christmas, and Easter, but change the meaning of the day, because they thought by keeping these holidays it would help to convert more pagans by giving them a holiday in which they were use to, however Many don't even celebrate Christmas, because they think it honours the birth of Yahshua,




furthermore. Many people around the world simply do the Christmas thing as a time of putting up a Christmas tree, leaving gifts for others, doing the whole Santa thing, and so on. In a way this form of celebration has become what Christmas is about as most films, T.V specials, and when people talk about Christmas has more to do with the whole Santa thing than the birth of Yahshua thing. Now many traditions are said to come from this form of celebration of Christmas, but how true are they actually?


pursuing this further, you hear of many traditions of Christmas, and sayings such as "it's better to give than receive" but we need to look at things with truth, because while many people say it is better to give than receive they would rather receive than give. Than we have Christmas stories such as Rudolf the Rednosed Reindeer, a story about a deer with a glowing red nose that saves Christmas after a massive snow storm, and many peopel think of this as a Christmas story that has been passed on from generation to generation (which it has been since it has been around a while now), but actually it has not been around as long as many people think, and was a story created by Montgomery Ward; a retail store. In a way you can say Christmas is nothing more today than a way for retail stores to make money.


Basically, Christmas is a day as seen as being "the most wonderful time of the year" but in truth it is a time of the year were the retail stores such as Wal Mart make the most money, and things are not really wonderful, but stressful as people try to find the must get item of the year. The day starts off pretty much on black Friday; which is ironic, because black Friday is a day in which everyone goes nuts, and pretty much says to the other people f*ck you as they try to get gifts for people, and it's ironic, because black Friday takes place the day after we are giving thanks, Thanksgiving, so on Thursday it's thank you, but on the Friday after it's F*ck you. I don't really care how anyone celebrates Christmas for the most part, but I do have a problem with Christmas in the following way.

Generally, I could care less about how people do their Christmas thing weather it's to celabrate the birth of Yahshua, or they do the Santa thing, because pretty much no one does the pagan type way anymore, but I do have this problem with Christmas; you always hear of santa watching the kids, and how he only gives gifts to those boys, and girls that have been good, and leaves coal for those that have been bad; now you might think that's a good thing, but if you look at that deeper you will see it actually is not a good thing, because think of it this way let's say a kid has been bad his parents aren't going to not get that kid gifts, but they still will get him, or her gifts, so the kid that has been bad still gets gifts, and this could lead them to thinking they were good when they were not, so down the road they will still do bad things, because they might think their being good, but lets look at this from the other side of the coin let's say a kid is good, but their parents are simply too poor to get them anything, so the kid gets no gifts despit them being good, so this could make them feel like they were bad even though they were not, and lead them to start doing bad, because they think they already were doing bad, and so maybe by them changing and doing bad they would think they're doing good.


In final analysis, Christmas was a pagan holiday that has grown to be about many different things, and although it is a time of joy the truth is it is filled with much stress, and is not a time free from problems, but really only creates more.



Thank you for your time, and for reading this post,
I love you all deeply.
Your Friend,
VPK

My Thoughts As They Come!!!!

I am a prisoner to my own thoughts, and I find myself asking if this is right, or wrong, and I don't know if am walking in YahWeh's light, or a slave to Satan's darkness, and find myself questioning weather am free from the wickedness that once was a cancer to my mind, or if am living free from it all. I don't know if am a person of wisdom like I wish, or just a fool that thinks he is wise  but with all the problems, and thoughts that go through my head on a daily bases I know you are with me, and always will be, but I find myself needing you more than ever, so I ask for Wisdom, Knowledge and understanding rather than money.

It is clear that wisdom is worth more than any stone, or metal and knowledge is what is best to build a solid foundation on, and having understanding means to love people no matter how different they are, no matter if you agree with how they live their life, and to forgive people when it is not the easiest thing to do, and all wisdom, knowledge and understanding that is correct comes from your blessing, and that in which it does not is the false lies of the devil which blinds the eyes, and we sometimes don't even see that we are blind, but rather we think are sight is divine.

I do not cast stones against anyone, but I do cast stones against myself. because I know of all my flows, and my flows have caused me to lose friends in the past, and I wish I could make peace with those people, and ask that you give me the chance to do so, but for the longest of times I was not at peace with my own self, and the only thing I really wanted was for death to lay her kiss upon me, and escape from hell, but now I want life, and to spread love, and to help those that might think like I did, and are prisoners to their own thoughts, like I was, and tell this day I still am at times.

To all my atheist brothers, and sisters I know we don't agree on the whole God thing as I feel as God exist, but you don't, but don't think for one seconded that I don't love you, and I pray for you not in a negative way as to sound like am better, but in a positive way with love being the motivation  and no matter what you can turn to me, and I will be there for you my friend!!!!

The reason for that is, because the person in which I try to live like, even though it is not the easiest thing to do, has taught me to love, and I know he would love you, because his heart is pure, and his example is what I try to live by.

I know this blog post was weird, and am sorry for that,
I hope The Holy Most High blesses you over, and over again, and fills your hearts with The Holy Spirit
I love you all deeply,
your friend,
VPK

A Look At The Mental Hospital Problem(s)

Dear my lovely readers,

I hope you are doing well, and you are in peace, and may the Holy Most High send you many blessings!!!!

So in the world we live in today you often hear stories, or see on the news how a person did some horrible act that had mental problems, and you ask well why was this person not in the mental hospital, and the reason for this is, because lots of times they were, but after only a week, or two the doctor(s) let that person go simply, because the person in that week seems fine, however the thing about that is sometimes it takes more than a week to truly see the real person.you see anyone can act a certain way, and fool people, and it takes a while to see the true them. It simply does not happen over night. Now you may be asking well why do they let people go so fast? Well the blame may actually not all fall on the shoulders of the mental hospital.

In lots of cities, and states (I don't know how it is in other countries, so I can only talk about the United States) the government, weather it's local or state, is not giving the finds needed to support the mental hospitals, so they can't afford to keep people too long, and they have no choice, but to let people go even if it is not a good thing.

Another problem is with the insurance companies. As many only allow the person to stay in the hospital for long, because they don't want to pay, and after the period ends in which they pay for the stay the hospitals let people go, because sadly it's about the money, and if the they are not making money off someone they simply will let them go, so they can get someone in they will get paid for. Maybe some of you are saying well they can give the people medication(s), and that should take care of them right? well that does not always work.

The problem I find with most medications for mental problems is most make the person a zombie, and that person seems to always be out of it. Another problem is lots of times the person will run out of meds, and then they become worse than before. I know of a few people that were on medication  but ran out, and got so bad they sadly throw them selves in front of a train. Maybe they will be able to improve medication, so it does not make you a zombie, and when you run out the fall is not so bad.

In the future (hopefully the very near future) I hope this is no long an issue, and the mental hospitals are able to keep those who need to be kept longer than a week, or two the time needed to truly help them, and let's hope they get the money, and support from the government they need, and please can the insurance companies stop worrying only about money, but instead taking care of the people, and maybe science can improve medications over time.

Thank you for your time,
I love you all deeply,
your friend,
VPK

My First Blog In Forever

Dear my lovely readers,

I hope you are all doing well, and you are in peace. It's been a very long time since I last wrote a blog. As for me I been not doing to well these last few months, and I had five seizures since October, and the doctors don't know why, but they gave me some new meds, and told me if I take them I should not have any, so let's hope they do there job. Then a few weeks back I started to faint, like I walk two steps, and bam vic's on the ground, but today I write to you all feelin' pretty good.

What all these health problems have done is make me very humble, like I use to hate that I was alive, and wanted to die, but now I am happy to be alive, and feel blessed to be writing this blog, I guess sometimes something needs to happen to open your eyes, and my eyes no longer feel closed to the beauty of life.

that is all for now, I hope to write more blogs soon, and I hope the Holy Most High sends many blessing your way.

Love,
Your Friend,
VPK

being a prisoner to the past

Dear my lovely readers,

I hope all is well with you, and you are in peace,

one thing that is commonly done is we make our selves prisons to regrets to things we did, or did not do in our past, for example one might think to their self " why did I not take the job when I should have, or why did I do this, or that" but the truth in the matter is no matter how much you regret the past you simply can not change it, so there is no need to make it our prison, because if one is to keep doing that they will forever be a slave to the past, and the future will be held down with the chains of regret, so simply leave the past were it belongs the past.

in the book of Philippians  it is written

"Brothers, I do not consider that I have made it my own. But one thing I do: forgetting what lies behind and straining forward to what lies ahead, I press on toward the goal for the prize of the upward call of God in Christ Jesus"


simply put the past is history :)


thank you for your time,


love,
your friend,
VPK

the sorrow of the summer

Dear my lovely readers,

I hope everything is going good for you all, and you are in peace.

This summer has in a way sucked for me in the fact that I spent most of it in the hospital, in fact I spent most of 2012 in, and out of the hospital, and am sick of being sick. my illness has caused me to miss parties, funerals, and so on, and it's like I want my normal life were I was not sick back. am in the hospital so much, and have to get so many I.V's my arms look like pin cushions, but despite all of that I am still happy, and in high spirits, and over all am happy :)

I will pray that your lives are filled with joy :)

love,
you friend,
VPK